My grandmother must have been about 80 and I was with Mom taking her to the doctor. As we checked in at the desk, out in an open area, my grandmother announced loudly to my mother, “I wonder why she wears her hair like that?” She was talking about the nice woman checking us in. My mother’s face flushed as she calmly said how pretty it looked. I know shock and awe were on my own face. These were things you just didn’t say aloud! You may think it but you don’t say it.
However, as we get older and our filters wear thin, things we think tend to fall out of our mouths. I’ve seen the same thing happen with my parents. I told Hubby a couple of years ago that I felt sorry for our kids. Once my filter is gone, no telling what I’ll say!! My mind runs all the time and, if I did not exhibit some self-control, I would embarrass everyone with my musings, comments, questions, snarky quips…I might be thinking exactly what my grandmother said but the difference is that I’m not saying it.
Proverbs 23:7 says “As a man thinks in his heart, so is he.” It’s talking about how people may say one thing aloud but in their heart, they don’t really think that. What they are thinking in their heart is truly what they are. That is a bit scary when I think how many things I don’t say but I do think. It reminds me that, if my filter were worn thin, these things would come out of my mouth for everyone to hear. Now that’s a sobering thought. What does that say about who I am?
Yesterday I was pondering this. Somehow I must fix what is in my thoughts. 2 Corinthians 10:5 says we are to “…take every thought captive to obey Christ.” It is a war we wage within our minds. As my parents taught me, what goes into your mind affects the way you think so you have to guard what you let in. I must purpose to put in good things to correctly influence the way I think. God’s Word is the only thing that is strong enough to combat the world I live in and therefore the thoughts that come into my mind. Only with God’s strength can I wage the war in my mind. In my pondering, I came to the conclusion that I need more time in His Word. I simply don’t read it, ingest it, memorize it, repeat it, as much as my mind needs. As a man thinks in his heart, so is he. What if your filter were gone? Who are you…really. Think about it…